10 days til your 1st birthday

March 10th would have been Tristin's first birthday. We miss him so much. He really was our Rockstar. The world is just not the same without him in it. Griffin misses him too. I still can't believe that it has been a year since I gave birth to Tristin and started our hypoplastic left heart journey. I've had hopes to have another baby but it hasn't happened yet. I don't want to replace him, I just want to have more children. I miss Tristin so much. He would look at me with such adoration. God, I know you can't bring Tristin back, but please send us another blessing to love. My heart aches.